I’m embarrassed, but I need your help #please… I have a possible tumor and my insurance isn’t helping

I don’t do this often and the few times I have asked for help, I’ve never gotten very far. But I need to try because I don’t know what else to do.

I suppose this is a long rant about what’s going on with me and my life these days. I try to keep it quiet and distract myself with pretty things, but sometimes I need to let it out. And maybe you can find it in your heart to get through this and help me in some way. Anyway.

There are too many things going on. Too many things.  No one I know has money they can lend or just gift me. I have no money. My family of 3 lives off of $17k a year. I honestly don’t know how we make it.

Health insurance is denying my claims. I can’t pay my medical bills. I need a ct scan bc I have a tumour that may need chemotherapy (according to a resident at John Hopkins) and I can’t afford any of it. It may not need chemo or radiation. It could be nothing. It could be outright removed (even though we’ve removed it twice already) but I’ll never know until it’s too late, if I can’t get this ct scan.

I practically live on my asthma inhaler and I often wonder if I can even afford to “waste” another huff of it. My asthma isn’t bad enough to kill me or anything like that, just bad enough to torture me every day and send me to urgent care with the occasional asthma attack that requires being hooked up to a breathing machine.

I got put on prednisone. The side effects are weight gain, fatigue, foggy thoughts, pain, nausea and just about everything I don’t need right now, or ever.

My phone is dying a little more every day. I can’t make or receive phone calls or texts and data anything doesn’t work. I can only use it when I’m home and connected to wifi. It turns off randomly. Freezes. Even when at home, it can take forever for it to do anything. Battery life is an hour at rest if I’m lucky.

My mom’s car is busted. That was our only source of transportation and now that’s gone. We can’t afford to fix it. The closest bus stop is 5 miles away on the highway with no sidewalks. I can’t walk there bc I have nerve damage so severe that I’m on meds galore and still can’t walk longer than 15 minutes. And sometimes the pain is so bad that I can’t walk at all.

I have nothing in my name other than debt. What are these bill collectors going to take away from me? I don’t have wages to garnish. What do they want? I have nothing to give them. If I could dissect this tumour myself, I would maybe sell it to science or some weirdo on Craigslist. That could make some money, maybe.

Nothing is right or even close to it. Even if after 4 years of unemployment someone does want to hire me or even interview me, how would I get there? How do they call me? Even that doesn’t work out right.

I’m stuck and I need help getting unstuck. I’m so embarrassed to even be asking, but I really don’t know what else to do.

If you can find it in your heart to maybe throw a few bucks my way, I’d be so insanely and forever grateful. Maybe you can pass this along to a friend?

Thank you.

Peace and Pistachios,

Heba

xoxo

 

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An entirely flawed system

So I just found out that NJ is cutting off my food stamps because I’m considered able-bodied. Food stamps has literally been the only thing feeding my family right now and the only way for me to continue getting food stamps is if I go to a 20 hour a week work program. I tried to go to the program and had to make an appointment for orientation months ago and they were so mean and dismissive of me. They wanted me to miss my doctor appointment to go to their orientation and I told them I couldn’t miss it. I was sick, I needed to see a doctor. So they wouldn’t schedule me for another day and that was that.

I can get out of the requirement if I’m caring for someone in my family, which I am, my mother who has been unwell. But why is she unwell, because without warning her health insurance was terminated because she was deemed to make too much money. My mom makes $800 a month from alimony payments. That’s it! How is that too much money? Because she doesn’t have health insurance, she can’t afford her meds and hence has not been the greatest lately. The only way to prove that I’m caring for my mother is if she gets evaluated by a doctor and deemed disabled. Again, something we cannot afford. And if she never had her insurance terminated to begin with, she’d have her meds and she wouldn’t need someone to look after her.  It’s a flawed system and I’m so embarrassed and sad and scared. I don’t know how to feed my family.

I’ve been trying to get a job for a year and a half now with no luck. I have a BA and two MAs. I’m clearly educated and should be capable of getting a job but no one wants to give me a chance despite my 10 years of experience. I really don’t know what to do. I really hate to ask, but I need help. I haven’t paid my credit cards off, we’re charging everything on credit and I’ve reached my credit limit. We’re not using the heat even though it’s so cold, bc we can’t afford to make the payment. I don’t have a cell phone line because we can’t afford it. How is my family going to eat? What am I supposed to do? Like we can’t even afford to pay rent this month. Literally, I have no idea what to do or how to keep us from being hungry and homeless. And I could kick myself for ending up in this situation.

I keep trying to crawl us out of this hole, but I keep failing.

This is so embarrassing, but I need help and I don’t know where to turn. I’m so embarrassed to ask and hate myself for getting to this point. If you could spare anything, even just $1, I would appreciate it so much. https://www.paypal.me/hebavsreason I swear, I’ll never forget your generosity and 100% promise to pay it forward. I’m just so scared and so unsure of how to make ends meet. I’m so embarrassed and I’m so sorry for asking. Maybe you could pass this around, reblog it. Any help would be so important and I’d be so thankful.

What do you know?

List 10 weird facts about yourself and ask your readers to do the same thing.

  1. I like really bad movies. I like to watch super cliche movies- I think they are hilarious.
  2. I’ve had more jobs that I can count. I’m just looking for my place in this world.
  3. I would rather be an animal than a human. Like a cat, an elephant, dolphin, ape, camel, donkey.
  4. I watch more TV and movies than anyone ever should.
  5. I’m a writer, but I fear rejection so much that I’m often afraid to put what I have in my head on paper.
  6. I’m pretty observant. I notice things that I’m told most don’t notice.
  7. I like to wear dresses because I have a hard time finding jeans, pants/trousers that fit my hips, butt and thighs perfectly.
  8. I can never decide whether I want my hair long or short, straight or curly.
  9. I despise injustice, lies,  ignorance, bigots, racists, propaganda and people who believe ignorant and bigoted media.
  10. I have a fear of geese and swans. Ducks- I’m usually okay with, but they make me uneasy.

Unemployed Binge Watching Is My Expertise

My favorite shows to binge watch during this long stretch on unemployment, in no specific order:

  1. Pretty Little Liars
  2. Sense8
  3. The Blacklist
  4. The Leftovers
  5. Mike Tyson Mysteries
  6. Childhood’s End
  7. Resident Advisors
  8. Night Court
  9. The Jeffersons
  10. Shameless
  11. The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
  12. Fargo
  13. Blunt Talk
  14. Grimm
  15. Game of Thrones
  16. South Park
  17. That 70s Show
  18. Once Upon A Time
  19. UnReal
  20. Boy Meets World
  21. Divorce Court
  22. I Love Lucy
  23. The Golden Girls
  24. Sleepy Hollow
  25. Bates Motel
  26. Lizzie Mcguire
  27. Happy Days
  28. Silicon Valley
  29. Under The Dome
  30. American Dreams
  31. The Fall
  32. Gilmore Girls
  33. Arrow
  34. Deutschland 83
  35. Red Band Society
  36. The Goldbergs
  37. 8 Out of 10 Cats
  38. Would I Like To You?
  39. Penny Dreadful
  40. Looking
  41. Grace and Frankie
  42. The Newsroom
  43. The Whispers
  44. ANZAC Girls
  45. Younger
  46. Mr. Robot
  47. Humans
  48. Nurse Jackie
  49. Lizzie Borden Chronicles
  50. The Americans
  51. Wayward Pines
  52. Resurrection
  53. Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt
  54. The Returned
  55. The Slap
  56. Banshee
  57. Fresh Off The Boat
  58. Mozart In The Jungle
  59. 12 Monkeys
  60. Allegiance
  61. Schitt’s Creek
  62. The Mindy Project
  63. Rectify
  64. Bones
  65. Black Mirror
  66. House Of Cards
  67. Teachers
  68. A Place To Call Home
  69. The 100
  70. Chasing Life
  71. Married with Children
  72. Arrested Development
  73. Revenge
  74. Sons of Tuscon
  75. My Name is Earl
  76. Torchwood
  77. Bomb Girls
  78. Sherlock
  79. The Tudors
  80. Lost Girl
  81. The Book Group
  82. Continuum
  83. Orange is the New Black
  84. Malcolm in the Middle
  85. Dance Academy
  86. Being Human
  87. Greek
  88. Raising Hope
  89. United States of Tara
  90. House
  91. Scrubs
  92. The Big Bang Theory
  93. Friday Night Dinner
  94. Fresh Meat
  95. The Inbetweeners
  96. Parks and Recreation
  97. Hart of Dixie
  98. Undeclared
  99. Dinosaurs
  100. The IT Crowd
  101. The Killing
  102. Accused
  103. Gavin and Stacey
  104. Coupling
  105. Trinity
  106. Hotel Babylon
  107. Sleeper Cell
  108. Degrassi
  109. The Office
  110. Drop Dead Diva
  111. Switched at Birth
  112. Jericho
  113. The Riches
  114. The Wonder Years
  115. The New Girl
  116. Community
  117. Gossip Girl
  118. Parenthood
  119. Breaking Bad
  120. Glee
  121. Skins
  122. Mad Men
  123. Weeds
  124. Prison Break
  125. Dexter
  126. 30 Rock
  127. Jack & Bobby
  128. Survivors
  129. Dead Like Me
  130. Friday Night Lights
  131. Rescue Me
  132. Doug
  133. How I Met Your Mother
  134. South Park
  135. It’s Always Sunny In  Philadelphia

 

And that’s just the half of it. I don’t think there were and repeats. But if you ever need something to binge watch, this is certainly a starting point.

 

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50 Bucket List Goals

What’s on your bucket list?

I have an ever long and ever changing/shifting bucket list. And it seems fitting to reassess my life goals in light of the new year. Here are just a few wants on my list. Some are simple, some are more challenging.

  1. Have my book published

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  2. Write another book 

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  3. Get funding for a PhD

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  4. Get into a PhD program that is right for me

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  5. Learn to surf

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  6. Get healthy

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  7. Go to a dinosaur museum

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  8. Be an extra in a movie or show

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  9. Learn to spearfish

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  10. Own a home and piece of land where I can have lots and lots of animals like donkeys, horses, llamas, lambs, dogs, cows and more.

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  11. Adopt and/or foster children tulsa-adoption-attorney
  12. Get a job that allows me to travel and pay off my student loans

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  13. Get lasik

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  14. Get laser hair removal

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  15. Start a nonprofit

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  16. Take horseback riding lessons

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  17. Have friends

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  18. Become more flexible

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  19. Fly first class

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  20. Make someone’s wish come true d760991e995d83172de94452f2319e06
  21. Go cliff jumping Woman_cliffjumping_3307605b
  22. Hang out by a serene waterfall

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  23. Name a star dCVnPp3
  24. Have my own private plane and/or helicopter

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  25. Be in the fashion industry

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  26. Learn to dive

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  27. Go scuba diving

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  28. Befriend an elephant

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  29. Have one of my plays produced

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  30. Have someone illustrate a comic book based off of one of my stories

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  31. Have one of my stories turned into a film

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  32. Learn to draw

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  33. Live in a castle

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  34. Learn to sew

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  35. Go Ziplining zipline-adventure-in-whistler-photo_7325314-fit468x296
  36. Publish a cookbook

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  37. Own a car

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  38. Dance in the rain

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  39. Hang glide

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  40. Go to a haunted house

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  41. Throw a themed party mall-birthday-party-1
  42. Go through a corn maze cornmaze2009
  43. Witness a miracle

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  44. Take singing lessons

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  45. Take kickboxing lessons

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  46. Learn to knit

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  47. Learn to ride a bike

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  48. Go parachuting

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  49. Swim with dolphins

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  50. Meet Harry Styles, cut off some of his hair and sell it on ebay for millions so I can afford to fund my bucket list.  harry-styles-loud-shirt-coffee-los-angeles

 

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There is nothing casual about civilian casualties

Are you a Daily Mail reader? I won’t lie, I usually read the Daily Mail for a laugh. Some of these stories they come up with… they’re just interesting and chuckle-worthy to say the least. I do, however, know that I should never read an article concerning a serious matter on the Daily Mail website. But alas, I torture myself every time and even worse, I always scroll down to the comments section to read the vile things people feel so confidently typing, but rarely say in person.

Some of the worst things I’ve read include:

Comments about how “Real” refugees shouldn’t have phones- Many refugees are fleeing war. That doesn’t mean they didn’t have possessions. Cell phones are no longer a first world standard. Get over it because I’m willing to bet that the vast majority of refugees don’t have these fancy contracts and money to spend speaking hours on the phone.

Comments about how “real” refugees shouldn’t be allowed to wear makeup- First of all, I saw the video this ignoramus was commenting on and the woman did not have makeup up. She was and is naturally gorgeous. Perfect contours, skin and thick eyebrows. She’s prettier than all of us put together. That comment was pure jealousy. Plus, considering everything these refugees have been through, so what if she gets to put on a tiny bit of makeup. She deserves to feel beautiful and like her normal self after the torment of fleeing her country and home.

Comments about how refugees are only in it for the benefits- You know what benefit they really want. The benefit of life!!! I can’t entertain that nonsense.

Comments about how Syrians should fight for their country- This is the silliest comment of all. Syrians have been fighting for their country for years. They’re not only fighting against ISIS, you know. They’re fighting against the Assad regime and the US and Russia and the whole list of countries that have been striking Syria. What weapons do these innocent civilians have that they can use against a whole world? The numbers don’t add up. The worst part is so many refugees are children. Do we really expect children to fight? Because if we allowed that the Daily Mail commenters would comment about how child soldiers are wrong.

Comments about how refugees desire to continue their education makes them economic migrants and not refugees- You realize that these people have had their entire lives come to a complete halt. They’ve literally been sitting around starving and waiting to die. A whole generation of young Syrians is growing up illiterate and unable to do basic math or know much about anything other than war. These refugees aren’t coming over just so they can take advantage of university education. No, if they could have stayed in Syria and continued their education they would have. But there are no teachers left in schools in Syria because there are no schools left. The schools that are left get used as shelters and makeshift community centers.

Comments about how “we” should bomb “them all”- That is an incitement of terror and makes you complicit in murder. Just putting that out there, you horrible human being. I have no problem with seeing ISIS and Assad terrorist thugs get blasted off this earth, however the legal thing to do would be to capture them and try them in a court of international law, in which they would be found guilty and live a long and tortuous life in maximum security prisons. But there is nothing casual about bombing an entire city, killing innocent civilians and calling them casualties.

Comments about how everyone in Raqaa is an ISIS terrorist and that if they weren’t they would have left- Yes, Raqaa is an ISIS headquarter. Yes, ISIS controls the city, but is everyone there a supporter of ISIS, no? But to openly oppose it would leave you dead or tortured. Why don’t people leave? They don’t have the money. Sure smugglers could get you out, but where would you go? The smugglers will take all your money, risk your life and leave you penniless on a raft in the Mediterranean or in the desert on the way to a desolate refugee camp or in some other destroyed part of Syria.

Comments judging refugees for being separated from their families- Seriously? Is this the Olympic category for most vile comment made? Because if it is, you win. People get separated from their families in all sorts of ways that most people would find inconceivable. But it happens all the time. Talk to anyone whose family has been through a war or some sort of catastrophe: I can guarantee you that a majority of people will tell you they have at least one family member that ended up alone or separated from the rest.

Comments about how refugees have “such nice tents”- This dude commented on how her tent was so nice that she couldn’t possibly be a “real” refugee and that she probably has all this money stashed away. How deep in the dirt is your head exactly? Much of this type of supplies has been provided by aid workers, charity organizations and normal human people with hearts that donated much needed goods, such as tents. Do you want to live on a tent on a street corner when it’s raining and cold? No, especially since winter is nearing. You’re just a horrible person for thinking this

Comments stating the run of the mill stereotypes- The long list of racial slurs, insults, and stereotypes that I won’t humor by listing. You know the type orientalist rubbish that is slanderous, libel, disgusting and horrible filth, but Facebook won’t take it down because they’re too worked up taking pictures down of women’s bodies.

 

My conclusions: Firstly, humans are awful. I don’t know how people can be awful. I doubt most of these hateful commenters could handle  day in the life of a refugee. If you really think “we don’t owe them anything,” then you clearly have no idea how complicit our governments are in making Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan and the rest of the world, the situation that they are in today.

Secondly, we haven’t learned from history one bit. These comments– ugh just look at some of the things people said during WWII about refugees. Please and compare those comments to now.

And lastly, I can’t be the only one who sees comparison in 9/11 and the invasion of Afghanistan and Iraq with the Paris Attacks and the subsequent bombing of Raqaa.

Civilians, particularly children are innocent and pay the highest toll in wartime situations. I’m not going to sit here and pretend like I know what the answers to terrorism, racism, discrimination and bigotry are. Offhand I would say education, but we all know the world isn’t that simple.

All I want is for people to think for 30 seconds before they type these horrible comments. I pray your ignorant minds become enlightened with knowledge, wisdom and empathy.

 

Oh The Places We’ll Go… Or Want To Go

I’d love to travel the world. Really, I’ll go almost anywhere if money weren’t an issue. Alas money is an issue, but a woman can dream.

On with the list:

Dublin

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http://www.policehotels.com/hotels/ipa-house-dublin-ireland/
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Amsterdam

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http://www.iamsterdam.com/en/visiting/about-amsterdam
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Montreal

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Chile

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chile
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http://www.allianceabroad.com/chile-encounter-culture/
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Study Spanish in Chile

Colombia

All the streets around old-town Cartagena look like this. The colors vary, but they are often strong, and lots of nice balconies. HDR of 3 handheld shots. This time Photomatix was not able to crisply align the images, but I insisted in using it because it is the only shot Ihave of this nice blue building. Cranked up the smart sharpen to make up the fuzziness, used Freaky Detail again (http://www.scottkelby.com/blog/2010/archives/8691), which is similar to Nik Tonal Contrast. For scenes with walls like these I prefer freaky detail because Tonal Contrast enhances the roughness of the walls too much. I masked the sky and street when applying freaky detail. Some dodging on the shadowed walls, and then Nik Skylight filter to give it a more sunny look. https://www.flickr.com/photos/pedrosz/5049256137
All the streets around old-town Cartagena look like this. The colors vary, but they are often strong, and lots of nice balconies.
HDR of 3 handheld shots. This time Photomatix was not able to crisply align the images, but I insisted in using it because it is the only shot Ihave of this nice blue building. Cranked up the smart sharpen to make up the fuzziness, used Freaky Detail again (http://www.scottkelby.com/blog/2010/archives/8691), which is similar to Nik Tonal Contrast. For scenes with walls like these I prefer freaky detail because Tonal Contrast enhances the roughness of the walls too much. I masked the sky and street when applying freaky detail. Some dodging on the shadowed walls, and then Nik Skylight filter to give it a more sunny look. https://www.flickr.com/photos/pedrosz/5049256137
https://www.pinterest.com/UCalgaryAbroad/universidad-externado-de-colombia/
https://www.pinterest.com/UCalgaryAbroad/universidad-externado-de-colombia/
Aerial view of Embalse del Penol reservoir, an artificial lake built in the 1970s - El Penon, Antioquia http://www.huffingtonpost.com/judith-fein/colombia-attractions_b_3177856.html
Aerial view of Embalse del Penol reservoir, an artificial lake built in the 1970s – El Penon, Antioquia
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/judith-fein/colombia-attractions_b_3177856.html

Puerto Rico

Uncle Sam's Caribbean: Puerto Rico - Johnny Jet www.johnnyjet.com7336 × 5117Search by image Puerto Rico's El Morro Fort
Uncle Sam’s Caribbean: Puerto Rico – Johnny Jet
http://www.johnnyjet.com7336 × 5117Search by image
Puerto Rico’s El Morro Fort
Puerto Rico Destination Guide | Viator.com www.viator.com760 × 275Search by image
Puerto Rico Destination Guide | Viator.com
http://www.viator.com760 × 275Search by image
Puerto Rico Car Rental: Cheap deals with Sixt rent a car www.sixt.com424 × 283Search by image Puerto Rico Country
Puerto Rico Car Rental: Cheap deals with Sixt rent a car
http://www.sixt.com424 × 283Search by image
Puerto Rico Country

Cuba

http://gocuba.ca/client/home/index.php
http://gocuba.ca/client/home/index.php
http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/will-hollywood-embrace-cuba-as-761423
http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/will-hollywood-embrace-cuba-as-761423
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/04/02/airbnb-cuba_n_6990692.html
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/04/02/airbnb-cuba_n_6990692.html

Marseille

http://ecpnr.org/en/ABOUT-MARSEILLE.html
http://ecpnr.org/en/ABOUT-MARSEILLE.html
http://ecpnr.org/en/ABOUT-MARSEILLE.html
http://ecpnr.org/en/ABOUT-MARSEILLE.html
http://www.tripadvisor.com/Attraction_Review-g187253-d3850473-Reviews-E_Bike_Tours_Marseille-Marseille_Bouches_du_Rhone_Provence.html
http://www.tripadvisor.com/Attraction_Review-g187253-d3850473-Reviews-E_Bike_Tours_Marseille-Marseille_Bouches_du_Rhone_Provence.html

South Africa

http://globalriskinsights.com/tag/south-africa/
http://globalriskinsights.com/tag/south-africa/
http://answersafrica.com/10-amazing-facts-about-south-africa.html
http://answersafrica.com/10-amazing-facts-about-south-africa.html
http://cheapvacationholiday.com/south-africa/
http://cheapvacationholiday.com/south-africa/

Senegal

http://www.blackhistoryheroes.com/2013/02/the-african-renaissance-monument-in.html
http://www.blackhistoryheroes.com/2013/02/the-african-renaissance-monument-in.html
Looking towards Medina and Point E areas of Dakar. Image was captured by a camera suspended by a kite line. Kite Aerial Photography (KAP) http://www.visahunter.com/housing/how-to-find-an-apartment-in-senegal/
Looking towards Medina and Point E areas of Dakar.
Image was captured by a camera suspended by a kite line. Kite Aerial Photography (KAP)
http://www.visahunter.com/housing/how-to-find-an-apartment-in-senegal/
http://www.hercampus.com/school/cal-poly/my-experience-spending-summer-senegal-africa
http://www.hercampus.com/school/cal-poly/my-experience-spending-summer-senegal-africa

Tunisia

https://www-cif.climateinvestmentfunds.org/country/tunisia
https://www-cif.climateinvestmentfunds.org/country/tunisia
http://www.getintravel.com/el-djem-tunisia/
http://www.getintravel.com/el-djem-tunisia/
http://travelandstories.com/tunisia-country-feeling-never/
http://travelandstories.com/tunisia-country-feeling-never/

Iran

http://www.letstravelsomewhere.com/travel/asia/iran/
http://www.letstravelsomewhere.com/travel/asia/iran/
http://www.maguzz.com/5/iran.html
http://www.maguzz.com/5/iran.html
http://ignoringoccupation.blogspot.com/2015/08/iran-and-united-states-pain-of.html
http://ignoringoccupation.blogspot.com/2015/08/iran-and-united-states-pain-of.html

Maldives

http://www.iwallhd.com/wallpaper/1229x819/maldives-at-night-hd-wallpaper.html
http://www.iwallhd.com/wallpaper/1229×819/maldives-at-night-hd-wallpaper.html
http://www.skyscrapercity.com/showthread.php?t=110284
http://www.skyscrapercity.com/showthread.php?t=110284
http://packages.advancetrip.com/location/maldives/
http://packages.advancetrip.com/location/maldives/

New Zealand

http://www.travels321.com/new-zealand/
http://www.travels321.com/new-zealand/
http://www.worldconsultants.org/study-in-new-zealand/
http://www.worldconsultants.org/study-in-new-zealand/
http://andrew.hedges.name/kiwiculture/
http://andrew.hedges.name/kiwiculture/

There are actually many many more places I want to go, but really the list can go on and on. Here’s some wishful thinking that I’ll even get to see one of the places on my list.

The Scholarship Blues

I earned a place for Doctoral studies at some of the most prestigious and competitive universities in the world, but it all goes to waste if I can’t fund my studies. I deferred my place last year because I couldn’t get the funds together or at all for that matter. I figured, I’d take a year and hopefully things will come together.

But no one wants to give me PhD funding because my grades weren’t the best in undergrad  due to my undiagnosed learning disabilities  which influenced my grades in areas like math and science which I had to take for my journalism degree. Math, science and classes like Amish culture were completely irrelevant to my degree, but prerequisites are prerequisites. I’m told that in order to get funding my grades need to be the best of the best, but this doesn’t take into account my mitigating circumstances. Surely had I had the financial opportunity to get diagnosed earlier, I would have gotten the opportunity to learn ways to study and learn what worked for me. But alas, I didn’t have those opportunities and there go my funding chances.

Another reason no one wants to fund me is because my academic papers are not published in peer reviewed journals or academic journals, but every time I try and publish, I get told “we only accept published academics,” or I get told that I need to pay in order to get published. So let me get this right: I need money to publish so I can be a recognized academic so I can get PhD funding, but I can’t publish until I’ve been published and have the money? Maybe things work differently when you are already an established academic, but realistically speaking, how am I supposed to get started out? I was a journalist, but when applying for PhD funding, no one seems to care about journalism publications. Or at least this is what the rejection emails tell me.

Next step was to contact charities with grant applications. A list of charities was provided by my prior university, so I used that as a starting point. These are charities that are known to give student grants. And the response there has been dismal. Charities have been rude, mean, have told me to stop soliciting them, told me I’m not Palestinian enough or Arab enough. They’ve told me I don’t meet residency requirements, I don’t display financial hardship, I can’t provide up-to-date information about my disabilities, my grades aren’t good enough, I’m not involved enough or not Muslim enough. I’m too old. I’m too young. I’m too this, I’m too that. I’m not enough of this and not enough of that. One person even told me that it was “illegal” for them to give grants, when I know other students who have for a fact received grants from them. One person even replied saying “We don’t have any money. You probably have more money than our charity does.” Really, Really?! You want to go there. Okay, let’s go there. If you have consistent working plumbing, you have consistent heating in your house, don’t have to choose between  paying your bills or buying food to eat, then trust me– you are way ahead of me.

Or what about the charity that tried to change my entire PhD topic of study, deeming my topic irrelevant and uninteresting. Firstly, I never asked for your advice on my topic of study, I asked for your sponsorship. Secondly, I have advising teams at each university that differ with you. Not only is my topic ever the  more relevant, as it makes headline news regularly, but the top academics in my field believe it to be interesting, important and relevant. Thirdly, you may not know how academia works. For example: I can’t enroll in a music doctoral degree, get there and ask my advising team to support me in studying cryptozoology. Fourthly, you changed my ENTIRE topic. Meaning I would have to reapply all over again with a different proposal. And lastly, by changing every little thing about my topic, you made it your project and no longer mine.

Keep in mind that I am not harassing these people, charities, organizations, entities, etc. I send one email: A grant proposal. A university approved grant proposal.  I don’t call, follow up, knock on their doors. I’m completely calm. And I’m not about to waste my life or time arguing with these ignoramuses.

Next, crowdfunding. Even though I have had limited success with crowdfunding. (By the way, I’m VERY grateful for the money I was able to raise. VERY!) Getting £1000 was not easy and almost impossible. I don’t know many people. The people that I do know don’t have money to spare. I’d even get emails in response to my crowdfunding that told me to give up, it was a waste of time, it’s never going to happen, that I need to not bother people, etc. I put myself out there. I tried. I got burned.

Tried the online scholarship search engines. I spend my life on those search engines. I qualify for nothing. Somehow, I don’t qualify for anything.

Even the Said scholarship set up for Palestinians won’t fund me unless I go to Oxford or Cambridge and even though there’s an academic at Cambridge who said he would take me on, I applied there twice and couldn’t get through the first round because my undergrad grades from 10 years ago in math and science were rubbish. I got rejected by Oxford three times for the same reason. (If you’re really polite, nice, desperate and willing to make contacts, lecturers/professor/staff will secretly tell you why you didn’t get in. Doesn’t work everytime, but you get lucky every so often.)

Bottom line-  no one cares that I have learning difficulties. No one cares that the American education system is different than the British, European and Australian systems. No one cares that my overall undergrad GPA was a 3.12, but my GPA for my major and minor was a 3.67. No one care that my first MA was on a pass/fail basis. No one care that during my 2nd MA I became registered disabled due to some serious problems in my back that can’t be fixed, but only coped with.

No one cares that I went to the 4th most overpopulated high school in my state, or that my high school teachers told me I wouldn’t succeed to my face or that 9/11 happened during my sophomore year or that the devastation of 9/11 turned our sophomore curriculum upside down or that some of my classes didn’t have classrooms, books, set curriculums or that so many times our teachers gave up, walked out of class and stopped teaching, or that there were 50 students in my classroom or that my high school suffered from riots, bomb threats and at least one major fight a day or that I got bullied mercilessly or that all of these problems affected my learning experience.

When I got to my first year of undergrad I had no confidence, I thought I was dumb, I didn’t know how to study, I had never had to sit through a class longer than 40 minutes, I never had to write an assignment longer than two pages, I never had to use citations, I had never done a research paper, I never had to memorize information, I didn’t know I could get tested for learning disabilities, I didn’t know so many things. I spent most of the first two years of undergrad crying because undergrad hit me like a brick. High school in no way prepared me for undergrad and in comparison to the students in my class that had better academic upbringings, I could tell I was behind.  No one cares that I can play a mean game of catch up. But catch up can’t change the past.

I worked my nerves to its ends and got into an Ivy League MA program, where again, I felt I had to play catch up because I was no longer studying journalism and entered into the wonderful world of Liberal Studies. I competed against students who had formal training in studying gender, culture and globalization. It was all new to me. I struggled, a lot. But I’m proud of what I accomplished there. And again I had to play catch up for my second MA as I competed against students who had their first degree is Middle Eastern Studies. Middle Eastern studies was  a topic I read about in my spare time. I never studied it intensely or formally, I dabbled, but everyone else was way ahead of the game. I worked day and night, in spite of my medical difficulties and hardship to reach a level in which I finally felt my peers were finally my intellectual peers. I stumbled, A LOT, but no one gets points for most improved on their transcript. If only their were a module in which there were marks for effort, motivation, time spent, passion, determination and promise. If only I could get graded against myself as opposed to against my classmates. Or get a mark for moving my life across the planet by myself to another country, to a completely different educationally structured system and succeeding.

My motivation and ambition doesn’t count for anything on paper because there will always be someone with a perfect GPA or academic standing that gets ahead of me. These things will never show up on a transcript. And if there is anything I’ve learned it’s that transcripts are more important than letters of purpose.

I can’t provide up-to-date information on my disabilities because I haven’t seen a doctor since being back in America. I signed up for that whole Obamacare business and my application for health insurance keeps getting bounced around from office to office and no one seems to know when I will finally have health insurance or if I ever will. Whenever I ask what I should do if I’m sick, they say go to this and this doctor, but you’ll have to play out of pocket. Yup, can’t do that. I have no money. No income.

That no income part, my loan servicers don’t seem to believe that. Seeing as they are federal loans, you’d think they can check and see if I am employed or not via paying taxes, but maybe that’s asking too much.  I have to pay back $130,000 in student loans starting in March because that is when my deferment period ends. I applied for unemployment deferment, got rejected and told to apply for income based repayment. Yeah, that’s going to be tough to do because there is no income to speak of.

Not because I don’t want an income. I  have been applying for every type of job under the sun since May 2014. Even physical labor jobs which I know will only cause my disability to worsen. And guess what? I still can’t get a job. Signed up with recruitment and temp agencies, LinkedIn profile, Craigslist, Indeed, Simplyhired, Idealist– I get maybe 20 emails a day from different websites listing all these job opportunities. I apply and apply and apply and nothing. When I finally do get the chance at an interview, I set it up, date and time. I’m dressed and ready and pumped and every time they cancel on me with no prior notice.

Even though I have no job and I’m living off of my maxed out credit cards, I still somehow don’t qualify for food stamps, unemployment benefits or any other kinds of benefits. How did I manage that? How? Beats me!

Despite it all, I’m not bitter. I’m not angry. I’m upset, sure. I don’t expect a handout or pity. I’m not going to sit here and toot my own horn about how I’m an amazing human being or list all my good karma points. I’m far from perfect and I’m not entitled to anything in this world. But I want a fair fighting chance. I want more than what’s on paper to count. I want to live and not simply get by, but to really live.

I still remain optimistic that things will work out. I won’t stop trying and neither should you.

Opportunity: Look out, I’m coming for you!

Fair Trade Intern Volunteer Opportunity posted by: Peace & Justice Center

Fair Trade Intern
Volunteer Opportunity posted by: Peace & Justice Center
Posted on: July 26, 2014
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Volunteer Opportunity description
Title: Fair Trade Intern
Job Status: Internship
Reports to: Carmen Solari
Work Schedule: 15 hrs. Flexible
Applications Due: August 4th, 2014, 12:00 am

Organization and Position Overview:
The Peace & Justice Store is a unique, socially responsible non-profit, that strives for economic justice both in our community and globally. Formed in 1979, the PJC provides resources, training, and grassroots organizing supporting each other’s efforts by helping to increase visibility and effectiveness. Our retail store, located on the Burlington, VT waterfront, features Fair Trade products from small artisan producers in more than 35 countries across Africa, Latin America, Asia and the Middle East. We are also a buy-local retailer that functions as an educational and fund raising arm of the Peace & Justice Center.
We are actively seeking the right candidate to join our team as a Fair Trade Intern, which would include working both in the store to promote our local and fair trade artisans, as well as on our fair trade campaigns, which are mainly focused on education about fair trade.

Job Duties:
● Conduct research & write articles on findings regarding topics such as: the abuses occurring within the garment industry; which organizations are working to stop it/partnerships we can make with other groups nationally and internationally; legislation against the abuses; VT Fair Trade Companies
● Create surveys and Fair Trade educational materials
● Give presentations to classrooms, businesses, organizations, universities
● Assist in organizing events, tabling, recruiting volunteers, and more
● Office Management
● Vendor Project Support
● Visual Merchandising
● Internet Marketing Support
● Updating Social Media Outlets
● Book and Staff Offsite Sales
 Learn Point of Sale System

A Successful Candidate will Possess and Demonstrate:
● Ability to collaborate, communicate and work in a team is essential
● Excellent writing, research and communication skills
● Strong organizational skills and great attention to detail
● Self-motivated and enthusiastic
● Ability to set and work within deadlines and manage time effectively
● Willingness to accept challenges to complete tasks
● Experience working or planning large events is a plus
● Interpersonal/professional skills
● An excellent sense of humor

How to apply
If this sounds interesting we want to hear from you!
The position begins September 8th and ends December 13th. This is an unpaid internship and you are expected to work 15 hours a week.
To apply please send a cover letter and resume to the PJC via email at volunteer@pjcvt.org or by mail to:
Fair Trade Education Intern
Peace & Justice Center
60 Lake Street 1C
Burlington VT 05401
Specify desired internship title when applying; no phone call or faxes please.

Location
60 Lake Street, Suite 1C, Burlington, VT, 05401, US
Details
Extra details
Training provided
Owner’s areas of focus
Education, Volunteering, Economic development, Human rights and civil liberties, Community development, Library or resource center, Conflict resolution, Social enterprise, Race and ethnicity, Women
Time Commitment
Duration
Less than 3 months
Schedule
Flexible schedule